Is this what love feelings like? All other guys seem nonexistent when I think about you. I don’t want anyone else, as long as I can have you. You’re the only one I want. The only one I need.
Being in love is one of the best feelings in the world. You feel like you’re on top of the world. Like you can do anything. Even fly. But one sided love is one of the worst feelings. They may like you, just not nearly as much as you love them. You want to just pour your heart out and let them completely in, but you’re also aware of the fact that if you do that and they don’t feeling the same way, you might just get your heart broken.
Yesterday was another serious talk with Robert. We talked about the word I’m not allowed to use. But it wasn’t a bad talk. However it was scary. I think I’m really starting to fall for Robert. Even he sees it and that’s what makes me feel like I’m in love.
I try not to think about the age difference, but it kills me to know there are things we can’t do together. Even once I turn 18, we can’t go out on new years. You can’t take me to my prom. We can’t go clubbing. I can’t legally drink with you. This really feels like shit.
I’ve learned from being with you that it’s okay to be sad sometimes. But you have to keep picking yourself up when people push you down. You have to prove to yourself that yeah, maybe the shit they say about me is true, but hey your lowly insults can’t hurt me. I’m better than that.
I ignore the chest pains, because I want to be near you. I want to be with you. I know I’m not allowed to say this, but I think I love you.
The fact that you appreciate that I come with you on long deals and that you’d miss you if i were gone for more than a day, makes me really happy.
Yay, at Roberts house, feeling good. It’s so peaceful.
Man, I really like you and I want to stay that the age difference isn’t a big deal, but knowing we’re at different stages in our life hurts. You’ve already been a teenager and now you’re done chasing, but i’m still young and I don’t always want to be the one chasing you. I want you to want me as much as I want you . I want you to fight for me, because it would be like a part of you died if you lost me. Please just love me.